Sunday, November 13, 2011

Friday, October 21, 2011


This is what kind of person my best friend is:

He will take out $140 to pay off his registration for his truck,
complain about how he doesn't have money,
then 10 seconds later he will give money to a guy standing outside of Raley's collecting for special needs people.
That guy gave us each a tootsie roll for donating.
We drive out of the parking lot and Ant stops and gives a homeless guy his last five dollars and his tootsie roll.

He went to the DMV to pay off his registration and didn't realize that they added a $4 processing fee, so instead of it being $137 as he anticipated, it turned out to be $141. He had given the extra $7 he had in his wallet to charity and to a homeless person. I gave him the dollar since he was so amazing and caring.

I love my best friend so much. He's so amazing, and so selfless. It's hard not to have a crush on him sometimes when he does things like this. It's moments like this that leave me amazed at how caring he is, and it leaves me so confused as to why he is single. Seriously ladies, he's available! If skateboard-p doesn't swoop him up I'm going to punch her in the throat.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

dear stalker,

why are you secretly following my blog?

oh, and thank you to the girl who removed me from following her blog ;)

Monday, August 29, 2011

I guess I'm the bad guy now

you gotta love it when your good intentions make you the evil one.

radio boy

I Apologize

I'm sorry for my actions last night. I'm sorry for what was said. I'm sorry for what I did. It was cruel and childish and stupid and I know that I only did it out of my own insecurities.

I still stand by my beliefs. I think you are still in love with him, but that's not a bad thing. He's amazing. You should consider yourself lucky that you had him as long as you did. I'm jealous of you.
I need to stop acting like I know everything, because I don't. I'm sorry for that happened last night. There were things said that never needed to be. But I stand by my convictions. It's just a little suspicious that you start making those posts right after Ant admitted to liking Allie on his blog. I think you just need to admit it rather than save face. It may not be too late.

That's all I really have to say.

how i felt when i woke up this morning


Sunday, August 28, 2011

Dear Dottie,

I don't buy it. I don't believe you. I think you're full of yourself.
If you are telling the truth, that you fell in love with someone else did you also meet him on World Of Warcraft?
I stood up for you and this is what you are going to pull?
You should still be in love with him, because he is the greatest thing that has ever happened to you.
And don't you tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about, because I was and am you!
I was just trying to help, but I guess you're just going to be a petty little girl trying to fool herself into believing that she isn't still in love with the best thing that has ever come into her life, the very same thing she so carelessly threw away.
And yes, I will remind you.
And yes, his friends will remind you.
Because we all think you're insane for just throwing it all away like that.
He loved you more than you will ever know.

I hope you see this.
I think you're full of shit.

Love & Rockets,

Lil Wayne...

you're overrated...

and you annoy me.


Sunday, August 7, 2011

Going Back To Cali, Cali

Next year. Woot! I'm coming for ya! ;D
(yes, I stole your anime wink thing Ant, sue me)

Thursday, July 7, 2011


She called him a dork today, and he didn't even flinch.

But when any other girls (including both of his best female friends) call him that he has an issue with it.


Saturday, June 25, 2011

Ant Quotes: June 25, 2011

"Defense for days." (in reference to the Mexico/U.S.A. soccer game)

"He threw up because he Speed Racered it." (in reference to why his aunt's cat puked)

"I hate the number six now." (after getting his ass handed to him at texas hold 'em)

"Go suck a fuck, Camry!" (yelling at his parent's car's seat belt warning beeping thing)

"I will slap your face off of your face." (to me)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


It seems like something that can only happen in a movie. It's cliche beyond understanding; I thought people were smarter than that, but I know better now.

I want a redo, a do-over. I want to hit reset and let this go away like it never happened. My stubborn heart won't let me let this or you go. How could you do this to me?

It's a mixture of feeling insufficient, replaced, broken. Why would you throw it all away for one night. One night meant the rest of our lives, and the rest of my life will be without you.

How dare you say I'm turning my back on you when you laid on your back for someone else. Believe in your logic if it keeps you warm at night, for I no longer will to either of them.

You've made me and our past into a statistic, and I hope you're happy. Stay there in your bubble of innocence, it'll be popped someday, just not by me.

Please don't get over me because I want the indelible taste of regret to linger on your tongue in order to remind you of what you had and so carelessly threw away.

How dare you steal my heart and crush it like you did. How dare you place the blame on me. How dare you say I'm running away from the issues at hand. How dare you say that you ever loved me.

If anything the only thing I will ask of you is to not do this to another girl, because no one deserves what you did to me, please.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

If Your Heart Is A Speaker Then Mine Is A Subwoofer ;)

"Out Of Our Minds"
by Katie Costello (Feat. Greg Holden)

"Let's get out of our minds, today,
and take a little time, to look,
at the stars and the moon, above,
wishing someone like you,
were staring at them too...

special thank you to Ant for letting me steal this from him =D

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Just Ring Me Out

I am writing this as I cry.
I just heard quite possibly the greatest song ever.
Ant, I hate you so much right now,
but I love you all at once.
You knew it would do this to me.
And you were right, it's like this song was written just for me.


I already know this is going to be a blog.
I'm going to start writing like you, Ant.
Divshare players and all.
This is your fault.
I've never had a song make me cry this much.
Thank you, and no sarcasm.
I owe you a big hug.
And just because I'm crying now doesn't mean I won't kick your ass at Pokemon when I get there.
I love you, bugslut.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Pokemon Challenge 2011

Oh my, you are so on. Ant, you and you're new team are going down! Check out my team, and get ready to cry when I beat you. It's so on!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

My Best Friend Is You

There are very few people in this world that you can meet and just instantly know you are going to have a connection that surpasses anything and everything that you have ever experienced. It's not love yet it's emotional. It's not a relationship but it is all at once. It's the ups and downs the lefts and rights. Today is the birthday of my best friend in the entire world.

I love this boy with all my heart. He's my rock, my shoulder to cry on, my tag team partner, my other half, my twin, my brother, my Sully and my Bryson all rolled up into one. He's sweet, smart, funny, a dork (he's going to kill me for calling him that, sorry Bree!), he's such a nerd. He likes Star Wars, horror movies, wrestling, he has a dog named Zero, a lip ring, and the best taste in music of anyone that I know.

He's trustworthy, reliable, loyal, and most of all he's my friend. My best friend. Happy birthday bug slut! Bitches just bitches :)

Love & Rockets,

Monday, March 21, 2011

Back East

I'm back in New York, and all I can think about is how much I miss California. I wish I never moved here but then again I don't. I met Travie which is a great thing but I am missing out on so much. I know Ant has things handled for the most part. He seems happy now with things going the way they are. And I know Ash will be a great mommy. I just can't help missing all the little things. I miss Ash and I lounging on the couch and going to Millans with Ant when neither of us are even hungry just to buy food for later. I miss the weather the almost small town feeling. Even if that town sucks, it's my sucky town with my friends that think that the town is sucky too. I know that I have up to July to make my final decision. I have already been accepted back to Stanislaus if I decide to go back but then there is the whole family. They are staying here and I don't want to leave them, but I miss home so much, and I know that New York is not my home at all. I plan on bringing Travie with me when I come back to visit in May. I just don't know yet. Maybe a summer back home will help me to decide. California or New York? For now I must start to adapt to the hustle & bustle of the East Coast again. Here's a Coke to you Cali. I'll see you and all your craziness soon.

Love and rockets,

(yes I stole that, leave me alone)

Friday, March 18, 2011

survey friday anyone?

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
oh god, 12?

Are you taken/single?
happily taken by mister Travis :)

How old were you when you had your first kiss?

What color is your underwear?
whoa whoa whoa, intrusive!

Do you like anyone right now?
my travie =D

Ever had your heartbroken?

Miss anyone right now?
I'm in Cali right now so i miss my travie :(

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
Ant, to tell him to get his ass up and come over

Last person to text you?
Ant, to tell me that he needs to clean the house first :(

Last person you saw?
the little sis

What was the last thing you said to someone?
good morning

Who is top in your top friends?
myspace is bleh

because, its about blogger now :p

Who do you trust the most in your life?

Who do you love most?
my grandma

Ever been in love?
not yet

Who has hurt you the most?
an old friend who shall not be named

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?

Are you happy?
very, but annoyed that Ant has to clean up first

How many good friends do you have?
2, Ant and Ash
well Travie too :p

Are there some songs you cant listen to because they remind you of someone?

Have you ever cheated on a partner?

Ever been cheated on?
yes :(

Ever been told someone loved you?
yes, but it wasn't true

Ever told someone you loved them and meant it?

Not meant it?

Ever had your heart broken?
we went over this

Are you happy with where you are relationship-wise now?
taken and happy :)

What is your idea of true love?
a really good song on repeat for ever and ever and never getting tired of it ;)

When they slip, do you think you can let go the small stuff?

Do you believe in love at first sight?
not love, but strong like

Why or why not?
because thats only in fairytales

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?

Do you believe that love can be found in bars or is that too much of a risk?
I've never really been to a bar

Should people go to bars to find love?
i don't think so?

Or should they go to places where people who like what they like hang out?

Should men and women be expecting the other to buy the other gifts?
these questions are so weird

Who should wear the pants in the relationship or should it be a mutual give and take?

Should chauvinists of either gender be in a relationship?

What is on your bed right now?

When was the last time you threw up?
i can't remember

What's your favorite word or phrase?
i like saying slut, maybe too much

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Travie with his good morning text :)
Ant with his star wars quote response
and Leslie for being the most awesome little sis ever

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
slowly waking up

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
on the phone with Travie

What is your favorite holiday?

Have you ever been to another country?

What is the last thing you said aloud?

What is the best ice cream flavor?
cookies n cream

What was the last thing you had to drink?

What are you wearing right now?
pj bottoms, a black tank top, and one of Travie's red button up shirts with the sleeves rolled up :)

What was the last thing you ate?
spinach pie that i smuggled from Ant's house ;)

Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
I bought a I heart SF hoodie, and it's purple! :D Ant was jealous.

When was the last time you ran?

What's the last sporting event you watched?
some basketball with Ash

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?

Who is the last person you sent a comment/message on myspace?

Ever go camping?

Do you have a tan?
kind of

Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
not lost, but dropped

What is your guilty pleasure?
lady gaga

Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?

Do you drink your soda from a straw?
if i have a straw then yes

What did your last text message say?
"the sooner i get this house clean the sooner we can hang out, so wanna come help me clean? ;D" -Ant

Are you someone's best friend?
Ant and Ash, I hope.

What are you doing tomorrow?
spending my last day in california for a while :(

Where is your mom right now?
back in New York

Look to your left, what do you see?
Ant's guitar.

What color is your watch?
I don't have a watch.

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
kangaroos and koalas

Ever ridden on a roller coaster?

What is your birthstone?
no idea

Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive tthru?

Do you have any friends on myspace that you actually hate?

Do you have a dog?

Last person you talked to on the phone?

Any plans today?
hanging out with Ant and starting to deal with the fact that i leave on sunday. I don't want to leave, but I do. I wish Travie lived here, that way i could stay with Ant and Ash, and moving back here wouldn't be such a big decision.

Are you happy?
yes but i'm also torn

Where are you right now?
my cousin's house on my laptop

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
new york vs. california

Last song listened to?
"the great unknown" by the damnwells (i blame Ant)

Last movie you saw?
the new karate kid movie with Leslie

Are you allergic to anything?

Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
my purple converse

Are you jealous of anyone?
ANT! because he gets to work with kids!

Are you married?
hahahaha no

Is anyone jealous of you?
Ant, because I stole his purple I heart SF hoodie

Do any of your friends have children?
Ash is preggo and Ant has Zero ;)

Do you eat healthy?
not at all, but i did eat spinach pie yesterday

What do you usually do during the day?
if i was in New York i'd be at school or at work

Do you hate anyone right now?

Do you use the word 'hello' daily?

How many kids do you want when you're older?
two or three

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
25 :|

Have you ever been to Six Flags?

How did u get one of your scars?
a skateboard hit me

Have your parents ever caught you drinking?

Do you love the last boy/girl you were talking to?
I love Ant like a best friend

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yes :)

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
answering this question

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
my mom

Last restaurant you went to?
Millans with Ant

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Ant now.

Did you have an exciting last weekend?
very :)

Have you ever crawled through a window?
yes, ant's old house

What do you spend most of your money on?
food gas and clothes

Where were you at 1AM sunday morning?
in california

Ever kissed someone over 30?

Is there a secret you've never told your parents?

Do you like yourself?

Have you ever dyed your hair?
blonde :|

Are you wearing a necklace?

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
no one now

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
yes, but its better that i not

Are you an emotional person?
can be

What's something that can always make you feel better?
Ant, Ash, RFR, Silent Radio, Star Wars, and Ant bringing me pizza

Did your parents spoil you as a child?
kind of, yes

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Ant yes, but i don't consider him my ex anymore. its weird to think about him in that way

How's your heart lately?

Are you a cuddler?
oh god yes

Will this weekend be a good one?
it will be a sad one because i am going back to New York. I'll be happy to see Travie, but i'll be so sad to leave Ant and Ash again :(

What do you want rightn ow?
for Ant and Ash to move to New York, or for Travie to move to Cali

Who can always cheer you up?
Ash & Ant

Have you ever gone nude/streaked in public?

Who hugged you last?
Leslie :)

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
I am right now :)

Are you a kissable person?
I think so

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
yes :\

What is your relationship status?

Who was the last person to come to your house?
to this house? Ash, last night.

Look behind you, what do you see?
a wall

How many rooms does your house have?
this house? four

Have you ever worked in a food place?

What would you name your future daughter?
no idea

Who and where was the last concert you went to?
the morning benders in new york because Ant told me to check them out after he saw them in SF

Any summer plans for 2009?

What did you eat for lunch today?
its still before 10am!

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
packing packing and more packing

The last song you heard?
"the monster" by the damnwells

What do you think of love?
... (sorry Ant, had to)

When is the last time you went to a party?
last night

When is the next time you'll hit up a club?

Do you still talk to any of your ex's?
Ant, but then again calling him an ex = weird

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what?

Name 1 thing good about Myspace?
its dead

Does anyone know your Myspace password?

Have you dated anyone on your top 4?

Has your number 2 on your friends ever made you cry?

How do you feel about abortions?
i'm for 'em! *gives thumbs up*
lol! i'm pro-choice

Do you eat junk food everyday?

How often do you drive?
not often at all, I live in new york now

Where did you last drive to?

Describe your bestfriend?
Ash is this really cool laid back chick. Blonde, but not dumb. She's assertive, funny, fun, beautiful, oh and she's preggo! And she and her boy toy are getting married now!

Ant is like the male version of me. He's incredibly knowledgeable about music, works with kids, speaks Spanish, is cute, has a great sense of humor, and looks awesome in button up shirts. Ladies, he's pretty much perfect on paper. Did I mention that he's single ;D

I love them both to death, and wouldn't trade them in for anything in the world. The only hang up is that they both live in California, and I live in New York now :(

Who was the last person to touch you?
Leslie, but not in a dirty way you perv

How did you and your number 1 become friends?
numba one!

How late did you stay up last night and why?
3am and because Ant and I screen shared on skype to watch mcr's the black parade is dead live concert from mexico. it was fun, minus ant singing along :p

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
he is one of my best friends eva. he's like my sully, and my bryson. mixed up into one. like a really cool cute nerdy dorky guy that i can hang out with whenever and not have that emotional turmoil or want. my asexual cuddle buddy :)

Do you like someone?

Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex?

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with an S?

How's your life lately?

Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
no :(

What do you think about the current gas prices?
california is fucking nutts!

Would you sex tape with you in it for 3 million dollars?

Have you ever been so drunk that you blacked out?

Do you think that you’re a good person?

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
in a relationship

Have you ever flirted with a friends crush?
lol, no

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
two days ago at Ant's grandpa's!

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
blow pens :)

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Have you ever requested a song on the radio?
I have!

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Ash? Neva!

When is the last time you took a nap?

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

To text you?

To send you a myspace message?

To send a friend request?

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my cousin's guest bed

Have you kissed anyone in the last week?
Travie :)

Do you miss anyone?
Travie :(

What does your 8th text message say and who was it from?
"*muah* miss you baby" -Travie

What are you listening to?
"sophia" by the damnwells

Is there one place you'd like to visit?

Have you held hands with anyone today?

Do you like winter time?

Do you own uggs?

Do you regret anything?
ever owning uggs

What are you excited about?
today, its getting sunny!

Plans for today?
hanging out with the best friends eva!

Seven days from now will you be in a relationship?
i sure hope so

What are you doing tomorrow?
packing, again

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
noo idea

Where is your number one person on your friends list?

Do you want to dance?
now i do because of this ellie goulding song!

Who do you not get along with?
she who shall not be mentioned

Last movie you watched?
i answered this

What are your plans for the weekend?

What do you notice first about a guy?
smile and eyes

Something interesting happen lately?
the sun came out and then went away in like 30 seconds :|

Where is the person you like right now?
new york

Last time you took a shower?
i will take a shower soon!

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
waking up

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
fuck you

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
most recent ex, eeek. no idea

Have you ever been around someone who was high?

Do you like where you live?
i want to move back to cali :(

Last thing you purchased?
sour gummy worms

Have you kissed your number one on your top?

Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
i love cali

Explain why you last threw up?
no idea

Where did your last hug take place?
here last night when Ash was over

Who was the last person to hold your hand?
Travie :)

Are you a jealous person?
i can be

Did you have a good birthday this year?
I did. Travie gave me the most awesome surprise party

Are you tired right now?
kind of

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
let them be happy!!!!

Do you chew on your straws?
i do once the liquid is gone

Who was the last person you rode in the car with that was under 21?

Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
I hope so

Do you have curly hair?

Who was at your house last?

Do you lead people on?

Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?

Have you kissed anyone today?

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?

Last person you cried over?

Do you cry easily?

Do you have any brothers?
Ant :)

What do you think of them?
he's my bestie :)

Where did you go today?
nowhere yet

What should you be doing right now?
going over to Ant's to help him clean :\

Are you a heavy sleeper?

When was the last time you hand washed the dishes?
last night

Name everyone that made you smile today?
Travie, Leslie, Ash, and Ant

Who was the last person to put their arm around you?
Ant, being a dork of course.

Three feelings at the moment?
hungry, tired, and grimey

What are you listening to right now?
"only girl in the world" by ellie goulding (rihanna cover)

The highlight of your week?
being in cali!

Who were the last people you ate with?
Ash and Leslie

What really makes you mad?

Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
never been to mexico :\

What are your plans for tonight?
hanging out with the besties

What does the seventeenth text message in your inbox say?
omg, jeez

"Still sick. But I can hang out after I clean the house and pick up my check from work and deposit it. Wanna go to Millan's again today?" -Ant

What's the last piercing you got?

Ever toilet papered someone’s house?

Do you want to be married right now?

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
going to sleep

What do you usually do first in the morning?
wake up

Do you have college plans?
in college

Are you mad at anyone right now?

How many different beverages have you had today?

What did you do today?

What is your favorite flavor of jelly?

Do you want children?

What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
hanging out with Leslie

You're in the hospital, who on your TOP friends would come to visit you?
top friends?

If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
oh well

Do people underestimate you?

Are you named after a grandparent?
great grandparent actually

What's something you're scared of?

Name some of the people you love?
Ash & Ant

What's your favorite color?

Ever been kissed under fireworks?

Do you wish someone would call you?

Is there someone you wanna date right now?
Travie but i already am!

Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
heart broken

Is there a meaning behind your profile song?
i don't have a profile song

Do you have a best friend?

Do you believe that what comes around goes around?

Who was the last person you were mad at?
no one

What is the last song to make you cry?
"like the wheel" by the tallest man on earth

Is your best friend pretty?
they both are

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?

What do you miss?
living in cali

Do you give out second chances too easily?
i hope not

Ever felt that no one relates to you?
sometimes, but then i call Ant

Had plans and broke them?

When was the last time you saw your grandparents?
i saw my grandma a week and a half ago

Who are you jealous of?
Ant because he works with kids!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Survey Sunday: We're Just Fine

how old are you?

what did you do today???
nothing whatsoever

how old is the person you last kissed??

will this weekend be a good one?
it was =D

what was the last thing you drank???
watermelon slushie

are you listening to music???
yes; "sixteen military wives" by the decemberists

who's the first contact in your phone???
Ant :)

is the last person you texted a boy or girl??

what is your favorite alcoholic beverage??
i don't drink

do you have a best friend[s]???
Ant and Ashley pretty much rock

would you pass a drug test if you were given it right now?

do you hate the last person you were "talking" with??

was your last kiss a mistake??

pepsi? or coke??
coke in a bottle

who was the last person you held hands with??

what is the wallpaper on your phone???
a picture Ant took of a pokemon poster in japan town, san francisco

when was your last run in with the cops??
the other day. i rode my bike into a cop car.

plans? for this weekend??
weekends over.

is your myspace private??
nonexistant now

does anyone hate you?

could you go a whole day without a phone???
maybe but i wouldn't like it

are you stressing over anything right now?
yes, homework is a slut

have you ever snuck out?

did you wake up with text messages this morning??
Ash is my wakeup call :)

someone calls you at 3 am.?.?.?.
is that even a question?

what is the 17th text in you inbox???
"ok buttlove" -Ant

what is the 8th text in your outbox??
"you are a member of the rebel alliance and a traitor, take her away!"

annoyed with anyone right now?
not really

where would you move to if you could right this second??
san francisco

where is you number 4 on your top friends??
i keep forgetting that this is for myspace

do you get along with your siblings??
yes, all one of them.

what are you doing tonight??

would you ever get back with your ex?
one of them, but i don't think it would be the right time

where did you meet the last person you kissed??

ever had a sleep over with the opposite sex?
we didnt call it a sleep over

---------------LAST PERSON WHO--------------
x. Slept in your bed: me
x. Saw you cry: Ant
x. Made you cry: Ant
x. You shared a drink with: Ash
x. You went to the movies: Ash
x. You went to the mall with: Ash
x. Yelled at you: the little one :)
x. Sent you an email: Aaron

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER---------------
x. Have you ever liked someone who hadn't liked you?: yes
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: no
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: all the time
x. Been to California: I lived in California
x. Been to Hawaii: yes
x. Been to Mexico: no
x. Been to China: no
x. Been to Canada: yes
x. Danced naked: no
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: sorta
x. Do you have a crush on someone: maybe :)
x. What book are you reading now: text book
x. Worst feeling in the world: i don't know
x. Future son's name: Anakin ;)
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes, a frog
x. What's under your bed: dust?
x. Favorite sport to watch: football, but only when Ant is over and he's yelling at the tv, that makes it so much better :)
x. Siblings: 1 younger sister
x. Location: New York
x. College plans: in college
x. boyfriend/Girlfriend: there is potential for a boyfriend right now, but i don't think he is getting the hints.

------------------------EXTRA STUFF----------------------
x. Do you do drugs: no
x. Do you drink: not anymore
x. What are you most scared of: being alone forever and ever
x. Where do you want to get married: not vegas
x. Who do you really hate: no one
x. Been in Love: not really
x. Do you drive: i can drive, but i don't. It's new york
x. Do you have a job: currently :)
x. Do you like being around people: yes

x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go for?: nerds and dorks :)
x. Want someone you don't have right now: if you asked me this a few weeks ago i would have said yes, but he seems so happy right now where everything is going, and i'm almost certain that he's going to end up back together with his ex, and i honestly couldn't be happier for them :)
x. Are you lonely right now: i'm alone, but not lonely, the soft pack is keeping me company :)
x. Song thats sticks in your head a lot: "move along" by the soft pack
x. Do you want to get married: eventually, i'm in no rush
x. Do you want kids: same as above

x. Room in house: loft
x. music: not country
x. Band(s): everything
x. Color: rainbow
x. Perfume or cologne?: laundry detergent :p
x. Month: march
x. Stone: rocks

--------------IN THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU---------------
x. Cried: no
x. Bought something: food
x. Gotten sick: no
x. Sang: duh
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: nope
x. Met someone new: yes :)
x. Missed someone: yes
x. Hugged someone: more like huggled :)
x. Kissed someone: yes *blushes*

----------- I N F O R M A T I O N ------------
Name: I go by Liz
Status: single, but on the hunt ;)
Sex: f
Birthday: march 12th
Sign: Pisces
Hair color: red
Eye color: green
Height: short

----------- F A S H I O N | S T U F F --------------
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: zumiez :)
Favorite designer?: designer?
What is your sexiest outfit?: thats for me to know and you to find out ;)
What is your most comfortable outfit?: :)
What do you usually wear?: clothes

-------------- S P E C I F I C S -------------------
What kind of shampoo do you use?: treseme
What are you listening to right now: "behind the sea [alternate version]" by panic at the disco
Who is the last person that called you?: Ash
How many buddies are online right now?: I'm not on skype atm

------------- F A V O R I T E S -----------------
Foods: cookies n cream ice cream
girls name: Ashley :D
Boys names: Antony :0
Subjects in school: art and music
Animals: kitties, tigers, penguins, and llamas

---------------- H A V E | Y O U | E V E R -------------
Given anyone a bath?: to a dog
Smoked?: yes
Bungee jumped?: yes :)
Made yourself throw up?: no
Ever been in love?: nope :(
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yes
Cried when someone died?: yes
Fallen for your best friend?: oh yes.
Done something you regret?: no regrets thank you

------------- fave ---------------------
Music: did we not go over this?
Smell: italian food
Desktop picture: some spanish artwork thing
DVD in player: the copy of the goonies that i stole from Ant. I have to mail that back to him.

--------------- A R E | Y O U ---------------------
Understanding: maybe
Open-minded: definitely
Arrogant: no
Insecure: aren't we all?
Random: obviously
Hungry: now i am :(
Smart: i don't think so
Organized: not according to my room
Healthy: no, but i'm not overweight
Shy: definitely yes
Difficult: I think Ash, Ant, and my mother have each called me that at least once
Bored easily: i'm doing this aren't i?
Obsessed: with some things
Angry: noe
Sad: nope
Happy: yes
Hyper: RAWR! :)
Trusting: maybe too much

--------- W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A --------
Kill?: zombies
Slap?: a hoe
Get really wasted with?: if i drank i'd get wasted with jon stewart
Sex it up with: han solo

------------------ R A N D O M ---------------------
In the morning I: wake up?
All you need is: love
Love is: a really good song on repeat for ever and ever and never getting sick of it
I dream about: weird shit
Playing with: my hurr
What do you notice first in the opposite sex you're into: sense of humor and nerd level

--------- W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ---------------
Coke or Pepsi: repeat
Flowers or candy: candy
Tall or short: i'm short, so taller than me

--------------- W H O ---------------
Makes you laugh the most: Ash and Ant are good, but Travis has made me laugh the most recently :)
Makes you smile: the three mentioned above.

-------------- D O | Y O U | E V E R -----------------
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: no. I text him and tell him to meet me at the subway for random ass adventures :)
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: I wish I could be Ant for a day, just to see what it's like to work with kids.
Wish you were younger: sorta
Cried because someone said something to you?: yes

----------------- N U M B E R --------------
Of times I have had my heart broken: not too many
Of CD's I own: too many
Of scars on my body: two?

Thursday, January 6, 2011


these past few weeks have been interesting to say the least. its not the way i wanted to end my life here in california. i understand the confusion, the worry, and the hurt from all of my friends, and those that used to call themselves my friends. i'm sorry that i cannot change the way i am. while some of you may not even care i can tell you that what has been will be no more. while i can't change who i am who i am with will be. i know some of you will find solace in that fact, others will remain to worry and others will refuse to care. i'm sorry for what i have done but not for who i am.

i thank those of you who have stuck by me, even when it hurt you. you know who you are. it means everything in the world to me that you stuck through it all. to those of you who turned their backs on me i wish you could see me for who i really am.

tomorrow i leave to start my new life but will never forget the friends i've made here. the girl that would sit on my floor and listen to old records with me, the girl that fed me skittles when i was ill, the ghost on the wall, little boy blue with his insurmountable caring, the boy i kissed and smiled at the same time, and the one who opened my eyes to everything i am and can be.

tonight i fall asleep, and tomorrow i wake at home, this home one last time. goodbye california my love. i will never forget you.